Kids are getting better...

So, I took the kids to the doctor last Monday. I guess when I take my kids, I am kind of like a battle axe because I wasn't going to leave until I got what I want. Chris had told me that there was a possibility that they would send me home with no medication because the kids could be classified as a "Cold" . So...my "I'm not going to leave until the outcome is favorable for me" gene rears it's ugly head.

I took them to Urgent Care because their doctor couldn't see them both and I needed both of them to be seen.

I told the doctor right away that I don't bring my children to the doctor lightly and in their lifetime, Megan had 2 doses of Amoxicillian (sp) and Patrick had had one dose of Zithromax (sp). I told him I felt that they needed antibiotics and cough syrup. Well...guess what, I got prescriptions for an antibiotics and cough syrup.

He was very nice, checked the kids and immediately wrote me the prescriptions. I guess I know that he was going to discover that they were sick, but I wanted him to know that I knew what they needed and after examining them he concurred.

I guess I am writing this because before, I just blindly went with whatever a doctor told me, and now I don't. I question why and for how long and side effects.

After I had Megan, she had been home a week I started to hemorage. I had to have a D & C some of the placenta was still inside of me. After I made it through, the Doctor told me that he wanted me to go on birth control (I had never used birth control in my life), he suggested I go with Depo Provera. Quick easy shot every 3 months. Little to no Periods...won't get pregnant. I thought, well maybe that is for the best, I had Patrick and Megan 14 months apart. Doctor says I need it. Okay. I got my first shot in the hospital. I gained 10lbs. Got my second shot 3 months later. I gained 10 lbs. Got a third shot, I gained 15 lbs. Got a fourth shot, lost 3 lbs, but then gained 10 lbs...all on top of the baby weight I had already gained. I was to get another shot, but something inside of me said not to do it. I didn't. I stopped gaining weight. But I couldn't lose it either. I was not producing estrogen. 3 years after I stopped taking the drug I had all of the symptoms of pregnancy - breasts hurt, lactating, puffiness. So I went to the doctor - not pregnant. It kept up, went to another doctor - not pregnant. That is when I decided to park in the office until someone gave me some answers.

I know what pregnant feels like and this feels like pregnant. The Doctor was impatient - wanted to get home and wasn't really interested in what I was feeling. It was the end of the day and he got short with me saying it was probably something I did. I told him I wanted another doctor. He changed his tune. His voice softened and he asked me if I had been on birth control. I told him that 4 years ago I had been on Depo Provera, but I only took it for a year. He asked if I had had any periods. I told him No...I hadn't had a period since right before I found out I was pregnant with Megan. That was almost 5 years - No periods.

He told me that the reason I was feeling like I was pregnant was that hormone was starting to come back to my body and I would probably start having periods. He said that they could put me on Hormone Replacement Therapy in order to move it along. I declined. I had already screwed up my body putting a synthetic drug in it, I wasn't about to try to fix it using the same method. This was a known side effect. But my doctor had pushed it on my anyway. I wish now I would have pushed and asked more questions, but I followed blindly what had been told to me.

I don't know why I felt the need to share this...I am usually very private about me. Right now I have had periods for a little over a year, my body is starting to regulate itself and I am just now starting to lose weight. I am not anti-medicine...just anti-blindness.