So, I took the kids to the doctor last Monday.  I guess when I take my kids, I am kind of like a battle axe because I wasn't going to leave until I got what I want.  Chris had told me that there was a possibility that they would send me home with no medication because the kids could be classified as a "Cold" .  So...my "I'm not going to leave until the outcome is favorable for me"  gene rears it's ugly head.
I took them to Urgent Care because their doctor couldn't see them both and I needed both of them to be seen. 
I told the doctor right away that I don't bring my children to the doctor lightly and in their lifetime, Megan had 2 doses of Amoxicillian (sp) and Patrick had had one dose of Zithromax (sp).  I told him I felt that they needed antibiotics and cough syrup.  Well...guess what, I got prescriptions for an antibiotics and cough syrup.  
He was very nice, checked the kids and immediately wrote me the prescriptions.  I guess I know that he was going to discover that they were sick, but I wanted him to know that I knew what they needed and after examining them he concurred. 
I guess I am writing this because before, I just blindly went with whatever a doctor told me, and now I don't.  I question why and for how long and side effects. 
After I had Megan, she had been home a week I started to hemorage.  I had to have a D & C some of the placenta was still inside of me.  After I made it through, the Doctor told me that he wanted me to go on birth control (I had never used birth control in my life), he suggested I go with Depo Provera.  Quick easy shot every 3 months.  Little to no Periods...won't get pregnant.  I thought, well maybe that is for the best, I had Patrick and Megan 14 months apart.  Doctor says I need it.  Okay.  I got my first shot in the hospital.  I gained 10lbs.  Got my second shot 3 months later.  I gained 10 lbs.  Got a third shot, I gained 15 lbs.  Got a fourth shot, lost 3 lbs, but then gained 10 lbs...all on top of the baby weight I had already gained.  I was to get another shot, but something inside of me said not to do it.  I didn't.  I stopped gaining weight.  But I couldn't lose it either.  I was not producing estrogen.  3 years after I stopped taking the drug I had all of the symptoms of pregnancy - breasts hurt, lactating, puffiness.  So I went to the doctor - not pregnant.  It kept up, went to another doctor - not pregnant.  That is when I decided to park in the office until someone gave me some answers.
I know what pregnant feels like and this feels like pregnant.  The Doctor was impatient - wanted to get home and wasn't really interested in what I was feeling.  It was the end of the day and he got short with me saying it was probably something I did.  I told him I wanted another doctor.  He changed his tune.  His voice softened and he asked me if I had been on birth control.  I told him that 4 years ago I had been on Depo Provera, but I only took it for a year.  He asked if I had had any periods.  I told him No...I hadn't had a period since right before I found out I was pregnant with Megan.  That was almost 5 years - No periods. 
He told me that the reason I was feeling like I was pregnant was that hormone was starting to come back to my body and I would probably start having periods.    He said that they could put me on Hormone Replacement Therapy in order to move it along.  I declined.  I had already screwed up my body putting a synthetic drug in it, I wasn't about to try to fix it using the same method.   This was a known side effect.  But my doctor had pushed it on my anyway.  I wish now I would have pushed and asked more questions, but I followed blindly what had been told to me. 
I don't know why I felt the need to share this...I am usually very private about me.  Right now I have had periods for a little over a year, my body is starting to regulate itself and I am just now starting to lose weight.   I am not anti-medicine...just anti-blindness.